When the days keep on repeating

Why do these days keep on repeating?
Days where I just miss you so damn much
Days where I wish I can be with you
Days where I wish I can be right next to you
Days where I can spend time with you
Days where I wish you'd be nice to me
Days where I wish you'd talk to me

You know.. I'm not annoyed at you..
I know it's not your fault
But I cannot help not to get upset over things
I'm not blaming you..
So don't get mad at me.. Don't be annoyed at me.. Don't hate me even more
Coz it hurts so much

The hardest part is always the memories
I wish I can just forget them
But they keep coming back at me
And I can't get a grip of myself
I'm losing myself again and again
And I just really don't know what to do anymore :(
I'm going so crazy because of you

And these days just keep on repeating over and over again..
Only tears would answer me

To a dear special someone

Meeting you was fate

Becoming your friend was a choice

But falling in love with you was beyond my control

You were never a friend

You were always much much more

But I always tried to pretend that there's nothing more

Even when I failed so many times

You're just someone so perfect

Even with all your imperfections

I love you once and always 

4 years 10 months and counting 

Don't hate me even more :(

If I say more of the weird stuff..
I'm so scared that you'll be even more creeped out
And avoid me even further than you already have.. :(
But really..
Sometimes..
I just miss you so much
I wish I can fly there and see you right now :(
I wanna talk to you so badly
But I'm scared that you'll ignore me
And I'll just be even more upset
But really..
I miss you so much..
And I don't know what to do..
But :'( sigh

I don't expect you to do more
Or to talk to me more
But at the very least
Let me be upset and don't hate me for it
Don't avoid me coz I'm upset
Coz I can't do anything about it
Just let me express myself
Sometimes I just need to let it out
Coz no one listens anymore..

It comes to a point where I don't know whether this is choice or not anymore
Coz it seems like this is embedded within me already