Teardrop - Absolute Boyfriend OST

I love this song so much, esp the instrumental version. The story of this drama is VERY SAD indeed =( but I love it..Anyway, this song reminds me of the days when I used to listen to scoring music. It's very calming soothing and it gives me peace somehow. haha.. enjoy =)

My dream

I watched rapunzel today.. and one of the essence of the story is how she dreams of going out of the tower for 18 years.. and finally it came true. Thinking about it, I look at my life and think about my dreams. What do I want? I'm not too sure what I want to be in the future. Or how I'm going to live my life. I don't really have a dream. Some people want to be a doctor, lawyer, or they want to be the CEO of some company. Honestly, career wise.. I have no clue about what I want. Some people want to work in investment banks, insurance company, accouting firm etc. For me, I'm really whatever. Whatever job I get, I think I'll be happy. Some people might call me dull coz of this. When I'm dreamless. But one thing for sure. I know one thing that I really want for 19 years,, and up until now I still can't get it. Not even sure if I'm ever gna get it. Sad ey.. I guess if you know me, you'd know what I want. Well.. the answer is love! I just want to be with someone that I love. For some reason, it's just impossible. Something different about me made it very impossible. It's so frustrating thinking about it. I don't want money, I don't want anything else but this. One thing.. and it might sound simple for many people. But it isn't for me. Let me just experience it once, I think I might be satisfied. I only ask for one time. When will this dream come true? I hope someday it will.

Can't get rid of it

19 today!

Well.. what can I say.. I'm still me..
Can't believe I'm growing old..
On this special day..
Only the thoughts of you keep running thru my mind
I can't get rid of this thoughts and feelingz
It's getting rather annoying now
Coz I can't function properly like a normal people
Everything reminds me of you..
And I just can't get you out of my mind!!
I know I'm wasting my time..
But I can't do much..
I still really really do like you
Anyway, thanks for wishing me a happy birthday
It really makes my day =)

FINALLY!

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLLY!!!!! U TALKED TO MEEE!! =)))
OMGG.. u don't know how happy i amm..!!!!
im jumping for joyyy...hahah
the biggest smile on my face
the satisfaction in my heart
my patience has finally been paid off =))
im so happy!!!
so so happy!!!!
yayy.. im glad...
today is a good day
its an awesome day!
thanks god =))

I miss you

I miss you..
I miss you so much.. >.<
But it seems that I can't talk to you
I miss you more than ever!
My birthday wish is you
All I want is you
Let me talk to you for long
Please just for once notice me
That I'm here waiting for you all day long
I'm patiently waiting..
Coz I miss you heaps

Don't be sad

Please don't be sad..
Coz when u're sad..
I'm sad too =(
You did really really well
You did the best out of them all
You should be proud of urself
Well, I'm very proud of you
Please just cheer up..
I know you're a high achiever..
But it's alright
You should think of the good side
You're graduating =)
I'm sure many are proud of you
You're awesome
Super awesome
Don't be sad
Coz it breaks my heart

Talk to me

So December it is..
A few weeks had gone past..
I haven't talk to you for a while
And it feels like forever..

Everyday I go online hoping that you'd talk to me
I waited patiently day by day
When I see you online, I can only wish that it's my day
But it hasn't been so

As much as I want to talk to you
I just can't do it
I hold my pride,
I want you to be the one calling first

After a week, my wish had been finally granted..
So you did talk to me
And foolishly enough, I wasn't around to reply!!!
So mad at myself.. sigh
I replied.. but you never replied back..
I don't know why..

Now, I'm just waiting on the right timing to talk to you again
Or.. will you ever reply?
I miss you like crazy..
I miss you heapz and heapz..
I wanna see you..
I wanna talk to you..
I guess I'll just keep on waiting
For the right timing to talk to you..