Losing Battle Ground

That hope
That glimpse of hope
Did I make it up myself?
Why..
Why you keep doing this to me
It's a mental torture
You give me hope
At the same time
I still feel that coldness
Everything seems fine on the outer shell
But then you keep....
You keep doing the things you do
Never explicitly say it
And you keep me guessing
And I just cannot.. or not willing to see through it
But I'm not a kid you can fool
Don't keep giving me a lame excuse
I am not oblivious
Don't play this game with me
I know I'll lose
It's a fight that I'll never win
The moment I show my weakness
It's over
And maybe I gotta wait a million more years
Until it's fine again
Or maybe never
When can I stop pretending that it's ok?
When it never is

Never ever

I don't know if I'll ever forget about you
Or if I could ever let go
It's been too long
Way too long for me to forget
What's been engraved in my mind
In my heart
I love you once and always
And I really don't think I can ever let you go
You made me really happy
So very happy that I was happy to be gone if you just let me be
Every single memory
Is still absolutely vivid in my mind
Yes, I would wait my entire life for you
If and only if
You'd give me another chance
But you won't
I know you that you won't
Even if I beg a million times
It would never be the same again
Never ever..