Lingering Feelings

People often ask why I don't let go

I don’t know why

And don’t ask me why

Coz I really don’t know why

And I often hate myself

For not being strong enough to let go

I think I’m just too used to living like this

Days go by

Years pass by

Time goes on

The memories remain

And the feeling lingers

It Hurts

I thought I’d never love or say goodbye again
When I truly believed that
Things started changing one by one
Only the traces of me trying, only the memories remain
So it hurts
Those times hurt
Memories of you
I try swallowing my tears and crying again
But I can’t keep you out
But I can’t have you either
I can’t do anything
Only a finished love and goodbye remain
So it hurts
Those words hurt
When you said it was over
I call out your name and wander around
But I can’t see you
I can’t find you
I guess you’re not here anymore
My foolish love
This is all that it is
So it hurts
Tears are falling out again
I can’t stop it, I can’t wipe it away
Because of the memories I can’t let go
I try erasing and emptying again
But I can’t hide it
But I can’t have you either
I can’t do anything

Forgive the selfish me who can't let you go

Can you forgive me for loving you?

I don't know how it happens

But I'm not brave enough to let go

I'm too selfish

Bearing all this pain is better than losing all of you

Do you know that fear?

I should get used to it by now

But this feeling.. Why is it so intense

Do you know how much I miss you?

How I wish I could be next to you

How I wish we could talk

I miss you like crazy

But there is nothing that I can do about it

What if.. you hate me even more?

What if.. you get more creep out?

What if.. I lose you forever..... 

Forgive the selfish me who can't let you go. 

And in the end, it's only me hurting

And in the end its only me hurting.
Only me bearing all the pain.
Coz no you don’t care.
Don’t give a damn about anything.
You think that by letting me be it will make me stop.
It will make me not expect anything.
Yeah.. I don’t expect anymore, but it doesn’t stop the pain it doesn’t stop the sorrow it doesn’t stop anything. 
What it does is bringing more pain. 
Just pain and pain. 
Why do I have to live like this. 
I really don’t know myself. 
I really don’t know how to stop either. 
Im trapped by all these. 
I wanna hate you, but hating actually hurts more than loving u. 
I hate u so much right now. 
I hate u coz your carelessness. 
Can u show me one last time that u actually care?
That’s all I need right now. 
I need to know. 
But ur silence is killing my soul. 
It honestly does. 
Im so tired of fighting with myself fighting with my mind. 
But no it wont stop it doesn’t stop. 
This constant torture. 
How do I get out of it. 
Coz your coldness.. All it does is bringing more pain. 
Constant pain.. Nothing else but that. 
Don’t criticize me any further don’t tell me what to do don’t give me anymore advice. 
Ive got enough of that.. Instead, try to understand me. 
I don’t need anymore of your cold words. 
Coz its embedded within my mind and everytime I rmb then it hurts so much. 
Theese tears.. How to stop this.. 

Why has it come to this?

The good memories hurt

The bad memories hurt

Remembering or not it just comes so naturally

I certainly wish that the memories could vanish with the wind

Not thinking or thinking

Everything comes so naturally

Staying still or moving

Everything seems wrong

You’re thousands miles away from me

But why is it that not a single second I can’t stop think about you

Do you know how much its driving me crazy??

I don’t expect.. but I just wish you’d be nice enough someday

You’re being nice or being mean, it doesn’t stop me from loving you

You’re there or here it really doesn’t stop me

So why why why why why it has to come to this..

You’re pushing me to my limit

It's not made of steel, so don't keep hurting them :(

There are moments when it hurts so much
There are moments when the pain feels so unbearable
And during those times I can't help but to wish that you'd be nice
Knowing that I should not expect anything
It's not really about expectation sometimes
It's more towards a wish
Just missing the moments in the past
If you can forgive other people..
Can you also forgive me for being this way?
Coz you being like this is hurting me more than you know
I know that you wish that I would just stop
But it's not that simple
Coz I'm just human
I have feelings and a heart and you're hurting them
It's not made of steel either
So don't keep hurting them