Suffocated

The feeling is so strong these days..
I feel so suffocated..
When I saw you today.. It literally feels like it was so hard to breathe..
I couldn't breathe properly.
It's not the first time..
Every time we study together.. It also feels the same..
Why does the feeling has to be so strong?
Maybe it's my own fault..
No one to blame but me..
I feel so suffocated..
I want you quite badly..
I've been dreaming about you nearly everyday
I think on the back of my mind I can only think about you..
I like you so much >.<
What should I do?

sick of it

im sick of this life!
so sick of it!
it's the end of uni..
but i feel more stress than ever..
what to do with my future?
f it.

cant get a job? does it bother me? NO.
so what bothers me?
THE FACT THAT OTHERS GOT IT WITHOUT EVEN TRYING!
the fact that people will judge me
that im incapable
despite my VERY HARD WORK
that hurts more.
i dont give a damn if i couldnt get a job.. if that happens to everyone.
but no.. it only happens to that one person who tries the most
how i feel life is not fair
nothing is fair.

its time to go away
move away from this crappy world
maybe this is my chance
to start a new life
new friends
new environment
new love
new everything
im sick being here
i wanna get out!

I like you.. But it's time to let go..

Yes I like you
Yes it's been a while..
And my feeling has not change at all..
I like you a lot
Sometimes I like you even more..
Today you made me happy somehow..
I'm happy to be around you..
You made my heart smile..

But maybe it will be time to say goodbye soon..
I think it's best if I get away from you..
I think it's best if I forget about you..
You are the reason why I'm so motivated..
But I feel like you pressured me so much..
That I feel depressed every day..
You made me happy and sad at the same time..
It's too confusing..
I need a new life..
I can't stay by you forever..
I should really get away and move on..
I don't know if I can keep the friendship or not..
It'll be sad.
But I'll just bear with it.

I like you a lot.
Very very much indeed
But it's time to let go..