Time to stop trying

And so be it..
I am sick and tired of trying
Trying so hard to grab your attention
Trying so hard to push myself into your life
When in the end, you can't even value my good intentions
You can't see the good in me
You can't value me as a friend
You just simply don't need me in your life
And this one sided force is like driving me insane
I am just so tired of this lifestyle
That maybe it's time to stop
I should stop and I will stop
Although it hurts so much to write this
But I think it's enough
You have hurt me so deeply
And constantly hurting me
And taking all my good intentions for granted
I don't think I can deal with it any longer
Coz it's hurting me beyond what you can imagine
It's disturbing my life
I really don't know why I keep on trying or even bother to try
When obviously you don't and won't appreciate it
And so, I should stop today.

Don’t hate me for loving you

Don’t tell me to stop either

Coz that will hurt me even more

You’re the one and only person I want to love forever

And I really do mean it

I don’t have anymore words to express this

I know that u hate it

And im sorry it has to be you

I want you so much coz there is so less of you

I cant see you I cant talk to you I cant do anything for you I am not a part of you either

There is nothing that I can do……. And that’s why it frustrates the hell out of me

The longer it is the deeper it gets and I might as well get to the bottom of the ocean

Mid Month Blues

At least once a month
There's always this mid month blues
Where I don't know what else to do
Coz I miss you so damn much
And I wish you'd say something
Coz only you can make me feel better
But I know you won't do it
And there is nothing I can do either
But to feel lost and confused
At this time
I really do wish I can just hate you
Coz loving you is just honestly so painful for me
I wanna do so much for you
But I'm just one useless person
You don't need me
And you won't ever need me for anything
I can't be a good enough friend
Let alone more
And as always
My worst enemy is fear
Fear of losing you forever
I'm just always so scared to do more
Coz I'm too afraid to lose you forever

Hopeless Love

How beautiful that smile is

Time stands still when I see you

How did this love happen to me

The things you say, the moves you make

Make my heart keep pounding and pounding

But I keep my door firmly closed

Oh your eyes that are looking at me aren’t the same as mine

It is very sad to know how you feel

I know it’s hopeless that’s why when I look at you

it’s so hard for me because I love you so much

It hurts to hear that we’re just friends, I stand out of the line I’ll never cross

Though it hurts I just can’t turn away

This hopeless love

Just a little later, just one more glance

Then I’ll settle my mind, at least I believe so

But in reality it only gets bigger and bigger

My feelings for you grow deeper and deeper

Out of my control, I don’t get any better

Your eyes that are looking at me aren’t the same as mine

It is very sad to know how you feel

I know it’s hopeless that’s why when I look at you

it’s so hard for me because I love you so much

It hurts to hear that we’re just friends, I stand out of the line I’ll never cross

Though it hurts I just can’t turn away

This hopeless love

Lonely, how I look at you

This hopeless love

only hurts

Lonely, how I look at you

This hopeless love

only hurts

I know it’s hopeless that’s why when I look at you

it’s so hard for me because I love you so much

It hurts to hear that we’re just friends, I stand out of the line I’ll never cross

Though it hurts I just can’t turn away

This hopeless love