Overwhelming

How to convince myself that I don't like you?
How to convince myself that I no longer care?
I can't.........
I tried, but I cannot..
Why can't I be mad at you for longer?
Why can't I just hate you?
The feelings are just too strong and overwhelming
I don't know......
I don't know what to do
When the tears keep rolling down :(
A day passed since my birthday
I've used up my quota
There's nothing to look forward to anymore
You're not going to talk to me
And I can't talk to you either :(
I've used up all my quota.....
Ten million whys in my head
This is way too overwhelming :'(

Why is love so irrational

Keep telling myself to be strong
Coz I keep wanting to cry everytime the thought of you comes to mind :(
I gave in and started the convo today
Sigh I don't know
I just miss you so much :(
Why is love so irrational
Seems like my sanity has been washed away
I know everything
I know why things happened
But it doesn't stop me from hurting :(

Once in a while

Hm.. these days.. I try to avoid thoughts about you
At least when the memory comes I try to dodge it
I don't know..
The pain is still there
And it still hurts once in a while
I still cry once in a while
I still miss you once in a while
I still wonder about what you do once in a while
I guess I'm trying to reduce the intensity
And it's a slow process
I am still waiting for you to call me
Coz I still like you.. a lot

Gloomy day

They say there's sunshine after the rain
But it's been gloomy for so long :(
There are days when I'm fine
But at times like this.. I just want you so badly
The tears are pounding up again
Why can't you show that you at least care?
Your bitter words and coldness
Why so cruel..
Still trying to convince myself that I no longer care
But I cannot hide my feelings.

The most difficult part is forgetting the memories..

Forgetting someone isn't easy, but sometimes the most difficult part is forgetting the memories we've made with that person.

You see loves a funny thing the way it lingers in the mind
No matter what you do or the passing of time
That ember still glows for those lovers behind
No matter if its well remembered
That light still shines
Good times take precedent over every incident

Ah.. the memories.. its too much at times :(