disappointed

Waiting waiting n waiting..
That's all i've been doing this whole day
Anticipating for our meeting
Excited and disappointed at the same time
Why do u always give me these feelings?
Feelings or worry, joy, excitement, disappointment, sadness etc
You give me all these mix feelings that made me confused
And don't know what to feel anymore
Don't know what to expect
Good or bad.. anything can happen
I feel so lost..

I don't know what you think of me
Or how do u see me
But I know for a fact that I ain't important
You keep toying with this feelingz
Promising this and that
But you never keep your words!
Which pisses me off =s
And it keeps me waiting
I gain hope thru ur words
But you crushed it every time

I just want to forget..

Our last meeting was seriously a nightmare for me
I can't stop thinking about it
And every time I do think about it,
It gives me the most unpleasant feeling

I seriously tried to forget about you this last couple days
Whenever the thoughts of you come to my mind
I tried to think about something else
Yet doing this is extremely hard

Honestly, it's not the first time I feel this way
And whenever it occurs
I feel haunted by the experience
This unease feeling is killing me

I just can't seem to forget about you yet
Sometimes I just wish to be amnesia
So I can forget about everything instantly
Maybe it's better that way

what's left within me is tears and heartbreak

The sadness within me, when things didn't go the way i expected
I tried to cheer myself up by watching comedies
But only tears fall down from my eyes
Disappointment after disappointment
Everything just piles up at the same time
I can't control it any longer
Fool fool fool
That's what I am
Stupid for expecting
Dumb stupid fool why am I like this?
Why am I so blinded by this love?
I am disappointed at myself and everything else
F it! coz what's left within me is tears and heartbreak