Confused

My life has been really confusing lately..
It seems like I don't know where I'm heading to..
I feel like I'm so lost in direction..
I don't know what I want anymore
Every time I think about the long run future..
I keep arguing with myself..
Having this battle of mind..
Makes me so tired and confused =(

I'm just going with the flow right now..
See where it takes me..
All I know is that I only want one thing right now
The one thing I can never have..
Which depressed me all the time..
I want it badly..
I need it to survive..
I know I have to give it up someday..
But right now is not the time..
Please.. let me out of this confusion!

Bitter Sweet of Love

The more I know you, the more I like you..
The more I see you, the more I see your charm
At the same time, I know that this is not going anywhere
Desperation strikes me.. sad feeling comes upon me
Knowing this fact, I feel so hopeless
Helpless like a baby with no one to care for..
When I see you, I could just froze staring at your beauty
When I hear your voice, I could melt to the ground
When I'm near you, I feel like I'm in heaven
I just can't stop thinking about you..
Baring in mind that it's going no where
And it's certainly hard to get closer..
I feel like life is pointless..
Oh how I wish everything would just turn out good
But I know that it's not happening..
I just want another day of happiness..
Why is it so hard?