This Is it

So this is it..
Maybe one last chance to see you and that's it
I nearly missed that opportunity
And you wouldn't know how devastated I was
So what will happen afterwards?
I really don't know..
I can't believe time flies..
Is this the end of the story?
It could be..
I can't predict the future..

Right now..
I miss you
I keep dreamin about you
I miss the good times
I miss spending time with you
Although mostly its filled with silence
But your presence makes me happy
Knowing that you're close to me puts me at ease
I miss looking at your face
I admire you lotz and lotz
and I love you so much..

Sometimes..
I wish I cld do more for you
I wish I cld be more of myself
I wish you'd be happy when you're with me
I wish we had known each other earlier..
Now its all too late..
It cld be the end of the story..
An ending chapter..
Of me and you..
This is it..

Letting You Go..

At this moment..
I don't know how should I ever let you go from my life..
I wasn't going to go back because of you..
Now, maybe that's a bit foolish..
Coz I'm blocking the pathways of my life
I listed down the reasons why to go back n why not to go back
I realized there's many things to do If I do go back..
And if I don't.. I only have you as a reason..
So trying to be reasonable, I decided to go back this holz..
As much as I want to stay here..
The chance that we will spend time together is probably low anyway

I don't know how I'll survive..
I will miss you so much >.<
And after this, we won't be seeing each other anymore
This thought is just too depressing =(
Maybe I should just cherish the times we spent together
Put it aside as a memory
I can't do much with you anyway..
So I guess it's time to let go soon?
I don't know
I'm not very keen on the idea..
But there's nothing I can do now..
I'm going to maximize the time we have now
And the memory with you shall last forever..

I want to be with you

I can't hold it any longer..
Right now.. I want to hug you from behind
Hold you tight
And say.. please don't ever go
Stay with me forever
I love you so much
And be in that moment forever

>.<

Cannot Let It Go

what do you do when you just somehow cannot let it go?
it's officially 6 months right now..
well.. it hasn't been that long i suppose..
but the feeling is definitely there n getting stronger
too attached too tangled too deep too high too wide just definitely irreversible!
speechless.. clueless and lost..
what the hell am i suppose to do?
dont just say just let it go..
coz u know that letting go is never easy
i hvnt reach that point where i see i must let it go
and i dont know when that will happen..
i've been living in fantasy my whole life
why does the reality sucks a lot?
i dont ask for much at all..
all i want is one thing..
why cant i have it?
is it too mch to ask?
its nobody's fault
i just have such foolish heart and mind..
all i want is you you you you!!!
no one else but you
nothing else but you
i just want you..
my mind revolves around you
when u're not there i can go crazy
i somehow want u to know abt my feeling
but that might be the end of everything
i cant just ruin it like that
but i cant just sit back n live in fantasy
tough tough tough..
u're too perfect to be true
i cant stop admiring you
loving you
adoring you
i just cannot stop!
morning day and night..
all i think abt is u
when i probably mean nothing to u
when my existance doesnt make a sinlge difference in ur life
here's a life of one sided love
i just simply cannot let it go!