You told me to cheer up.. I was happy
Then you still didnt say anything the whole day
I thought that's okay, what you said this morning has erased my sorrow
Then the night comes.......
And you hurt me once again..
I know that you don't realise it at all
I know that I'm being petty and childish
But what should I do.. I really cannot control how I feel
If the things you do make me very upset
What did I do so wrong to deserve this punishment?
This torture is killing me
Why do I have to cry everyday?
It's so tiring
So how the hell am I supposed to cheer up..
When you keep hurting me with the little thing you do or don't do?
And why do I keep posting status updates?
Coz I actually want you to know how I feel..
How important you are to me..
But I can't make it too obvious
Coz I'm scared you'll be creeped out and back away :(
Which is my greatest fear..

You..

If anyone has ever been in this position, they would know the pain that i'm going through, the sadness that fills my heart, the deep longing i have inside within me. How painful it is, to long for you everyday, but I can never get to you.

I crave your attention everyday, I wanna be that person that you trust, that you can talk to anytime, the first person you want to talk to about everything, just your bestfriend.

I tried so hard to be close to you. I tried my hardest, I give up all my time just for you and only you. Just to wish I would get a slight part of you in return.

But you hurt me every single time, with your carelessness. The way you ignore me every single time. When every word from you, even a full stop or exclamation mark means something to me. 

I know that it's impossible for us to be together, and i'm not asking you to be mine. I just want to be there for you anytime. But you never acknowledge my existence within your life. If you can slightly acknowledge that i'm somewhat important.. Maybe it's just a dream. 

The shedding tears, aching heart, frustration, i just want to end it all. But why must you be so perfect that i can't stop loving you? Everytime i look at you, i would just be in awe.. Thinking why are u so perfect.. And i dont have any reason to stop this admiration. 

No one else can compare. And you're just too perfect to even let go. Even if i were to move on, you will forever have a spot inside, coz you left a big mark there that I can never erase. 

Missing you..

Missing you so much
So damn much
I can't help it
And I don't know what to do to stop these tears
You're the perfect definition of a drug
Someone so addictive
That gives me the ultimate happiness
That I crave so much
=(

Curious and Scared

I'm always curious about so many things
About you of course..
But I'm always too scared to ask
Although I do risk it a times..
I'm scared about what you think
I'm scared about the worst case scenario
I'm scared that you'll change your mind
I'm just always too scared
Too scared that you won't talk to me
Or that you will feel uncomfortable
So I've learned to have some self control
Trying to restrain myself from asking
Although I'm very very curious =s
It's never easy.. sigh