No more second chance

I know I screwed up,

But why wont u give me a second chance

You wont even allow to apologize

Im sorry, and I wanna change

But you wont give me that second chance

Another chance to be your friend

I miss being your friend

I miss the good time we had together

I miss talking to you

I miss every single thing

And just to not be able to forget

Or let go

I feel so hopeless.

Loving someone you can’t have is never easy
Loving someone you’re not supposed to is never easy
Loving someone you can’t be with is never easy
Loving someone who doesn’t know how much you love them is never easy
Loving someone who doesn’t care about you is never easy
Yet you foolishly put everything down for them
You let go of everything else
You give up what’s important to you
You’re willing to throw everything away
And in the end.. You’re left with nothing but..
Disappointment heartbreak pain and sorrow
It continues to be that way for a very long time
In the end, you keep on hoping and wishing for nothing

You’re not mine
And you were never mine
So what exactly did I lose?
And why does it ripped me open until today?
You don't understand
You don’t get it
You said love is not everything
But.. im dying inside
And theres no going through you
How should I explain this
Why is that every single day I feel like I'm suffocated
With the thoughts of you
How it hasn’t left my mind every single day since that day
I still sincerely wis that we can be friends again
That a day like the past will somehow come again
I don’t want to let you go
I don’t want to ever let you go
I love you once and it will remain that way

Everything remains..

They say time will heal
They say you gotta wait
They say it will go away
8 months passed by..
And yet everything is still so vivid
The feelings remain
The memories remain
The lingering remains
The words remains
The pain remains
The tears remain
Not a single thing has changed
And..... I just.......
Hate myself even more
Coz... It feels like I'm cursed
And stuck..
In this bubble

Don't appear again

Months passed by..
You somehow disappear from my mind
So please don't appear infront of me
Coz I don't think I can hold it
I've moved away from point zero
But if you appear again..
I have to start all over again
The memories do come back to mind from time to time
It's something I can never forget
It's beautiful and sad in its own way
Life goes on for me
But I can never forget how I loved you
And.. you're the only one whom I can give it to
Will I ever love again?

As hard as I push you away
The thoughts of you keeps coming back at me
Why does it still hurt after so long?
Why can't you just disappear from my mind?
I hate you so much
I am still so mad at you
But it hurts even more
Coz despite everything I still care a lot..
But.. you simply don't
How much longer will this be?
Is 6 years not enough?
The more I try to look for your replacement
The more I am saddened by this whole thing
Coz no one comes near
Not even near to where you are

Cruel World

You became twisted after what happened
And the whole world points finger at you
They judge and condemn you
Coz you're being irrational
And do they think you don't know that?
Do they think you like it this way?
No you don't
But you can't help it
When you need support the most
The world just steps on you even more