Today, you made my heart pound all over again
The excitement waiting for your reply
The disappointment that you took so long to reply
All feelings mix into one
I don't know what to call it anymore
Why do you appear in my dreams so often?
And why are you always the villain in my dreams?
Whenever I wake up, I feel glad that it's only a dream
Afraid that it will become reality
When we won't even be friends anymore
I'm really scared of that
Sad and happy
My feelings are all mixed up
I'm too confused
Not knowing how to feel
Only expecting a little bit
Knowing nothing will return
I'm trying to control myself
Not pouring everything to you
Not to hope
Not to feel a thing
I'm teaching myself to be numb
But somehow I just can't
It's too hard
Tell me why you exist in my life
What is the meaning of this?
Everything is unpredictable
Quite curious to what the future holds
Here's just some jumbled up thoughts
