nothing has changed

funny how after 3 whole years.. 3 years 2 months and 10 days to be exact nothing has changed. absolutely nothing has changed. the strong attachment ive got towards u has remained to be exactly the same. or even more in that case. why? i don't know. well yes i have to admit i have achieved some sort of effort. our relationship has gotten much closer than before. but.. what does it even mean. i know its false hope, temporary happiness. but i guess temporary happiness is better than no happiness at all. i am still the obsessed me. checking my whatsapp every 2 mins to see when u are online. what u are up to. like a crazy stalker. ofcourse. pls dont ever know or ull freak out. what am i doing? i dont know and i know its stupid useless and worthless. but why i dont stop? i dont know either. i guess im just foolish.