And in the end its only me hurting.
Only me bearing all the pain.
Coz no you don’t care.
Don’t give a damn about anything.
You think that by letting me be it will make me stop.
It will make me not expect anything.
Yeah.. I don’t expect anymore, but it doesn’t stop the pain it doesn’t stop the sorrow it doesn’t stop anything.
What it does is bringing more pain.
Just pain and pain.
Why do I have to live like this.
I really don’t know myself.
I really don’t know how to stop either.
Im trapped by all these.
I wanna hate you, but hating actually hurts more than loving u.
I hate u so much right now.
I hate u coz your carelessness.
Can u show me one last time that u actually care?
That’s all I need right now.
I need to know.
But ur silence is killing my soul.
It honestly does.
Im so tired of fighting with myself fighting with my mind.
But no it wont stop it doesn’t stop.
This constant torture.
How do I get out of it.
Coz your coldness.. All it does is bringing more pain.
Constant pain.. Nothing else but that.
Don’t criticize me any further don’t tell me what to do don’t give me anymore advice.
Ive got enough of that.. Instead, try to understand me.
I don’t need anymore of your cold words.
Coz its embedded within my mind and everytime I rmb then it hurts so much.
Theese tears.. How to stop this..
