Keep asking myself..
Why am I doing this to myself
Why am I making all these decisions
When I know it's just going to hurt me even more
The things I do will just confirm that things won't ever go back to the way it was
I will see the things I'd hate to see
Hear the things that will hurt me
Know things that will just crush me
I know it's going to get ugly
But a part of me still wants to go through it
I don't know if it's out of my own selfishness
But everyone has that part of them
I fear for the future
I'm sacred you'll be mean to me
I'm scared you'll avoid me
I'm scared you'll hate me forever
These fears.. Is draining me so much
