That hope
That glimpse of hope
Did I make it up myself?
Why..
Why you keep doing this to me
It's a mental torture
You give me hope
At the same time
I still feel that coldness
Everything seems fine on the outer shell
But then you keep....
You keep doing the things you do
Never explicitly say it
And you keep me guessing
And I just cannot.. or not willing to see through it
But I'm not a kid you can fool
Don't keep giving me a lame excuse
I am not oblivious
Don't play this game with me
I know I'll lose
It's a fight that I'll never win
The moment I show my weakness
It's over
And maybe I gotta wait a million more years
Until it's fine again
Or maybe never
When can I stop pretending that it's ok?
When it never is
