And so... for the numerous times.. I'm having those sort of moments again.. Where I feel like I'm getting crushed down to the ground..
I want to blame someone for it.. And as much as I want to do that.. I realised that it's no one's fault. Is it mine? I don't know myself. I want to blame a certain person.. But I know it's not that person's fault. I wanna blame God.. But Obviously God isn't the one to blame as well..
I feel like the world is collapsing on me. Nothing seems to go right.. And that envious feeling.. When everyone else got what I wanted. I can't seem to get over this feeling of jealousy.
In my head.. There's only this big question mark of WHY.. WHY IN THE WORLD IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME. WHYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! I hate myself for being like this. But I can't help it. Oh please someone just tell me why. I don't get it.............
