I don't care if I have to waste 10 more years of my life
Or even my whole life
Just to like you
Even after knowing the impossibility..
I honestly really don't care anymore
Coz if I care
I wouldn't have kept it for so long
I know the truth
I know and completely understand it
Just keep being nice to me
Even if you think it's bad
How much worse can it be than living like this?
Honestly.. This is not even living anymore
This is literally human cruelty
What's the point of living like this
Even when you're miles apart
Even when we just talk once or twice a month
My whole day... morning til night
Is only filled by the thoughts of you..
It's honestly a torture..
So why can't things be just like before?
Why won't you allow me to still like you?
I don't know if I could ever say it to you tho
I'm honestly so so scared of losing all of you =(
Losing part of you is already killing me so much
I cannot imagine to lose you completely
So I hold back
I suppress it so hard
But oh god.. If only you knew this pain
What it feels like to hurt everyday
This is just so crazy
Why can't the tears stop
I want you to know that it's hurting me so bad
But I know you'd hate it when I post things..
Oh really.. What can I do :(
