At least once a month
There's always this mid month blues
Where I don't know what else to do
Coz I miss you so damn much
And I wish you'd say something
Coz only you can make me feel better
But I know you won't do it
And there is nothing I can do either
But to feel lost and confused
At this time
I really do wish I can just hate you
Coz loving you is just honestly so painful for me
I wanna do so much for you
But I'm just one useless person
You don't need me
And you won't ever need me for anything
I can't be a good enough friend
Let alone more
And as always
My worst enemy is fear
Fear of losing you forever
I'm just always so scared to do more
Coz I'm too afraid to lose you forever
