Big Slap

The past two days.. have been quite harsh on me and I don't think I'm ready for the big slap. Although my presentation went well yesterday,, I got my midtest back. I knew that I would fail that,, I knew it way before hand when I finished the test.. I was prepared to receive it. I know I would fail for definite. It was really bad. I think I have a test anxiety. It happened a few times before. Anyway.. So, I got it back. The mark was really bad. I mean.. I'm not shock, but of course I'm sad. I mean I did study for that test... but maybe it was not enough.. The main cause for it is because I forgot how to do the first question.. and all the other questions linked to that first one. I got so panicked that my mind went super blank.. I felt like crying and dying. I was shaking like hell. It was terrible.

One day has passed.. I still feel terrible about it.. my hope for a HD in that course is gonee.. long last goneee.. well, there's still a possibility, that is if I got 90 ish in the exam. Nearly impossible, but still possible. Anyway, today.. I went to get my draft report back. I went with a happy feeling, I thought I'd do well in that report. I did put my effort into that.. and I feel confident about it. I thought I did well. When I got it back.. I was like.. WHAT?? errr.. yes. horrible. Although I passed, it's still horrible! I don't know what to say anymore.. well, the thing is.. apparently the main reason I got marked down is I focused too much on America rather than Australia in that report =.= How stupid is that? arghhhhhhh.. well, thank God, that it was only a draft!!! so it doesn't goes towards the final mark. I still have time to improve it. But it really brings me down =(