I have decided not to love anyone anytime soon.
I now realized that to love someone is a decision..
For me, when I see someone that I considered quite alright.. I think to myself
Then I make the decision to continue it or not..
Most of the time.. I continue it
Ending up suffering coz I know I'll never be with them
After the last experience I had.. I have learned my lesson
I decided not to do it anymore
It hurts like hell when love comes only one sided
Recently, I have considered someone to be quite alright..
I don't like him in 'that' way yet..
I mean.. he has the criteria that I wanted..
Very good looking indeed, good fashion sense ++, smart!!
Well, tonight, I had the chance to go with all
my friends to this final year dinner thing
He was there..
All my friends kept teasing me.. it was alright at first..
I didn't quite mind..
Until it gets to a point where it was too obvious..
It's fun teasing ppl, but when u're the one getting teased..
Then that's not that fun..
Then, something happened..
At that single moment.. I froze..
I was like.. alright..
But I knew straight away that I was jealous..
It's funny bcoz I actually don't like him yet..
I just considered him quite okay.
Yet I'm jealous when some things happened.
I know that my friend is a lot more outgoing than me..
And sooner or later.. they might become good friends..
Conflict might come in between..
Rather than ruining our friendship
And I will suffer..
I rather stop it now..
And don't care about stupid things like this..
I wanna concentrate on my study..
After getting over someone..
I realized that I can be more focus to my study
And not think of useless stuff..
So, it's better to be this way..
LOVING CAN BE PAINFUL
