Not Fair

sighh.. I hate it when things don't go my way. I hate it when things got out of control. I hate it when I don't get what I expect. It's very depressing. sighhhhhh...... I don't know what God is trying to teach me here. I'm sure there's a meaning behind everything. I studied.. I work hard.. I practiced.. I prayed.. Do I need more? I did rely on God.. I know it's not my capability. Was I too confident? I'm not too sure. I have a habit of comparing myself to others.. It felt like I have done more than them. Yet it's always me who got the worst out of all. Those who did less work got better. I just feel that it's not fair.