But something forced me to write this down.
It has been 36 days.. since we loose contact..
What a time it has been..
Although I have reduced down thinking about you
Every now n then.. u still pop out in my mind
And little things still reminds me of you
Both the good at bad times
I still remember the first time we met
It was the 23rd of february 2008
I know there was something special about you
On that day, I took interest in you
I hold my feelings for a week
Until we finally talk again..
I added you on msn..
I remembered ur status was busy.. so I didn't bother you
I remembered ur status was busy.. so I didn't bother you
The next day.. I decided to call you
We started talking..
At first it was a simple nice conversation
I remembered you were really friendly
We talked for about 3 hrs on that night..
I was extremely happy
From that day onwards I could not stop thinking about you
Our friendship grew further and further
We became quite a close friend
I was very happy of the progress I've made
I remembered looking forward to every weekend..
The day when I finally can talk to you after a week
You made me smile.. You always made my day
Every night, I used to read our chat conversation
I smiled and feel so content..
Wondering what will happen next weekend
Things did not go all smooth
Sometimes we ran out of topic
I have to think hard every day to create a new topic
Every night, I prayed to God so our coversation goes well
I think I really did love you
Now, it has been 1 year and 8 months
as well as 615 days..
and you still stick in my mind
I don't even know what to wish for anymore
Many times I wanted to give up
But something hold me still
That is hope..
I kept thinking there's hope
Even that is just to be friends
That's all I wanted
But now, I dont think I can even have that
No more friendship
It's all over..
Big mistake Ive made
No turning back
I have to move on..
