so i kept thinking..... thinking what is it that im looking for.
acknowledgement. i think thats what i need.
knowing on the back of my mind that all my effort was probably useless
and dont even know why im even doing it..
i need some sort of acknowledgement that it at least make a slight impact

like my logical mind says its so stupid
why am  i doing it
why am i keeping it
why am i being like this
i cant even find the answer to it
but.. somehow.. im just doing it like its a lifestyle already

sigh. going crazy already.