I told myself it's okay.. it's okay jude.. dont think about it..
dont wish dont hope dont do anything
kept telling myself over and over again
but somehow tears wld just flow unwillingly
i dont want to be sad
i dont want to cry
i dont want to feel this way
but i do and i cannot help it no matter what i do
it just keeps on hurting
and everything becomes muddled
i wanna scream i wanna shout i want to hit something
so i keep hitting my head telling myself why am i so stupid that im acting like this
why am i so stubborn
why am i such a fool
and this would just repeat over and over again
so fucking damn tired of it
i just want to live a normal life...........
i just want to be part of you..
am i really asking too much?
i cant digest this anymore
its too much to handle..
i cant say it
i cant do anything about it
n this is the only way to express it.
there is no way out of this.
