My thoughts……… my thoughts……. I have been thinking and thinking until there
is no more capacity in my brain to think anymore. Everything is blur. I don’t know
what I want where I want to be anymore. Like. The last string of hope.. is now
gone. U literally took them away from me. You’re giving me half hope. You’re
only half killing me. Might as well kill me dead, so I don’t keep on suffering.
Do you really think being like this is better. You said we can be friends. But you’re
putting boundary in our friendship. That’s not even friends. We can talk. But we
cannot talk often enough. We can see each other but just not freely. Just once
in a while. The time we spend together will give me so mch hope and happiness. Then
you will take them away again. Its like push and pull. How can you put me in
this state?! Do u really think if Im not used to being around you will make me
like you less? While we are still friends? The fact that we are friends will
make me like you no matter what. No matter if I see you or not. But the fact
that you’re putting boundaries will just hurt me. If you want to hurt me. Just cut
it right away. Not like this. Its like being on two boats. Trying to balance
myself. Not moving forward nor backwards. If you’re letting me to be friends,
might as well give me the full rights n treat me like a normal friends like u
wld with ur other friends.
