And this is my train of thoughts..
There's many things I wanna ask
I wanna say
I wanna tell..
But everytime, I'm scared that you're busy
I'm scared that I'll annoy you if I talk too much
Then I'm scared that you'll avoid talking to me
So.. I restrained myself from saying anything
Though at times it drives me crazy
I just saved it.. for a one good conversation..
Sometimes I waited for a week.. or two..
Then I carefully choose a time
A time where I don't think you'd be busy
Where you'd just be at home
Then usually you'd still reply
And we would have just some short conversation
And sometimes, I thought to myself it's good enough that you still reply me
It usually lasted a few days, or could be a week..
Then I started missing you again
I just wanna talk to you.. Then I'm scared again
I'm scared if you ignore me
Coz that hurts so much..
Then I kept seeing you online everyday... could be every half an hour.. every 2 minutes.. every 2 hours
Kept wondering why you have so much to say to your friends
Why they have so much to say to you
And it's just so hard for me to keep the convo going..
So I just wonder and wonder..
Then started thinking what can I do to change the situation..
And I just don't know anymore.
And the whole process just repeats again and again
Everyday.. every week..
