It's just a matter of time before I snap
And completely lost it
I don't know how much longer I can sustain this
The constant pain.. disappointment.. anger.. frustration..
Everything is just piling up..
And always there's nothing I can do about it
I honestly honestly don't know how to reduce the expectation
How to not feel... I don't know how
And it just keeps on hurting every single time
And sometimes I want you to know
That you're hurting me so badly :(
But it's not your fault.......
I know...... I know that it's not your fault
And I don't want to blame you either
But what should I do
Can you care a bit more?
I know that you still reply.....
But your short words gets on my nerve
Your ignorance gets on my nerve..
Today I risked so much just to have a conversation
It was stupid of me...
I know that it was wrong, but I did it anyway
If only you knew how much effort it takes to actually talk to you
Or comes up with a topic
Or to gather up the courage to say something
If only you knew :(
Every little thing counts and matters to me..
