And I wonder how many more of these nights do I have to go through?
How much more tears do I have to shed over the stupidest little things
You're hurting me so bad though I'm sure you're not aware of it
Your silence.. Why can't you talk to me like you used to
I'm not asking to talk everyday
But at the very least like once a fortnight?
Yet you talk so much to other people
I just cannot help this jealousy
Or wish that things could go back to the way it was
I just don't know how to stop
This feeling is just so intense I literally don't know what to do
Just one random word or anything
Any little things will be good enough
Just to keep me alive and sane
But instead I'm being kept alive in this state
You might as well hate me so I'd stop
But I'm so scared to lose you
I guess it's all my fault.
I don't know how much more do I have to hate myself
Coz I just cannot be good enough
Trying or not trying it hurts
Whatever I do is just wrong
So tell me, what should I do to be a good enough friend?
Coz you're pushing me away without knowing
And there's nothing worse than this
The more I try talking to you
The more I'm turning myself into a fool
So tell me.. What should I do?
